Christmas without my mother

If there would be a saddest Christmas in my life, that would be this year's Christmas. Why will it be the saddest, anyway? It is because this was the very year, that I will not be celebrating Christmas with my mother.

My Christmas won't be the same with the past years anymore. Unlike before when we were altogether, waiting for the hands of the clock to reach the twelfth. Preparing together for the Noche Buena and chatting different stories which make us laugh. Now, my mother will not be here to help us prepare the food, give us different Christmas presents, tell us interesting stories, and kiss us when it's time. Why? My mother died this year.

But, that is reality. What can u do? what I am just doing now as to adjust with this gloom, I am just thinking that my mother is just miles away from me. I am just thinking that she is just abroad and working. I am just thinking that she will be near soon.

I am also sad for my siblings because they are also waiting for my mother. But, we can't do anything about that matter anymore.

I simply miss those days when we were together celebrating and waiting for the time of Christmas. How I wish my mother is still here.

I just hope that my mother is very happy wherever she is right now. I hope she will send us a smile so we may know that even if she is not with us, she's still happy.

The past Christmas years will not happen anymore. I know my mother will not come back anymore. But, my only wish is tat for us to have a merry and happy Christmas in the absence of my mother.

Mom, wherever you are, I wish you a very merry and very happy Christmas.